lately, whenever i check my email, my blood pressure is raised and i
go apoplectic. you all have read a few of the responses i’ve sent to
prominent dems asking for cashand votes. there have been others. it’s
tedious to repost them.
right now there are at lest 15 requests for $ in my inbox. all i can
think of is that i know exactly 2 people who have real, permanent,
actual jobs and have had them for a year or more. 2, of all the people
i know in the meat world. 2. and the dems want their money? for having
done what exactly? they come to US with their hands out so that we can
send them back to gatekeep the wealthy and kill social security.
they’ve got their hand out while we suffer humiliation and deprivation
and poverty. apoplectic. and all the pissy email responses in the
world won’t change the fact that democrats don’t give a flying fuck
about us bottom 80%, unless we’re teabaggers.

—
The trouble with being poor is that it takes up all of your time.
Willem de Kooning

tragic baby kitty, the one with the seizures and the (formerly)
paralyzed front leg is the reincarnation of houdini. the viscious
little beastie keeps escaping her harness. it’s like a straight jacket
trick. she also plays fetch better than any dog and litters my bed
with crumpled bits of paper she wants me to throw for her.
i do believe i am now an official crazy cat lady. but what a cat to be crazy for

—
The trouble with being poor is that it takes up all of your time.
Willem de Kooning

everytime there is another story about some tender-hearted child being
bullied into suicide, i feel better about homeschooling the kid. but
it really fucking shouldn’t have to be that way. kids should be safe
at home and at school. handwrining over the usual culprits (tech,
video games, sex on the teevee) ain’t gonna fix it. we have to give a
shit and we have to start raising our children to be better people,
better than the horrible exxamples of biggotry and hate that we’ve
given them. every child’s death that has made the news lately has the
grubby little handprints of the patriarchy all over it. homophobia,
slut shaming fat bashing classism. sweet kids die so the patriarchy
can rule. fuck that.

—
The trouble with being poor is that it takes up all of your time.
Willem de Kooning

i’ve been watching lost on dvd (no cable, no internet, a girl gets
bored). i didn’t watch the show while it was and don’t think i’d be
watching it if i could be watching mad men instead. but the whole
premise of the show seems to be that you can’t fight destiny. pashaw i
say.
i think that what we call destiny, everyone having a purpose and
everything having a reason is crap. i don’t think it’s anyone’s
destiny to be a hotel maid or a prsident. i think we use destiny as a
way to make the very non mystical social conditioning tolerable. if i
am poor and sick it is because it is my destiny, and not because of an
uneven distribution of resources. bull shit.
not all social conditioning is bad. taboos against violence for
example. but our current conditioning actually breaks with our natural
evolution. we are cooperative, learning creatures. social conditioning
makes us greedy and selfish and ignorant. it is when we break that
conditioning that we exercise free will. i choose not to be part of
the lie of destiny.

—
The trouble with being poor is that it takes up all of your time.
Willem de Kooning